Rant About My Mess Of A Life

Hi guys,

Today's a motivational post to hopefully motivate you and me. (Jks it's a rant, what's new?)

I haven't been inspired to write anything these past weeks because I've (supposedly) been revising for exams. I don't even feel inspired to revise at the moment, despite my future being in the hands of these exams. It seems the closer I get to the end, the less I care. Maybe it's because of the amount of exam series I've sat over the past three years? Or maybe it's because everything I do isn't fun anymore. 

Revision is so tedious that it hurts my brain. Going over things I've already learnt for an unpredictable exam isn't what I like to spend my time doing. Yes, I know I procrastinate a lot and don't go out much but I would rather sit in an empty room than revise for an exam that I've sat 10 times. Despite the topic changing, everything else is the same. I want a change. 

Maybe I'll start caring when it comes to the end? Hopefully, anyway. I know I need to start motivating myself because, trust me, I want to do well. But it's so hard to break away from the internet and sit in front of a textbook. Revision isn't my idea of fun. 

People view me as smart. Really, I just wing my way through life. I'm not as smart as I once was and that doesn't bother me. I prefer non-academic subjects because, if I'm honest, I'm lazy and don't want to put the effort in. It's not the right mindset (that's what my school tell me) but if I enjoy a subject, I will want to do well. I want to succeed in interesting subjects but subjects aren't interesting anymore. And I don't know how to make them interesting.

I love writing this blog and lately I've been slacking. The pressure from school which I felt, despite not doing anything to make it go away has made it quite difficult to write or have time for this blog. In the coming months, these posts may be hit and miss but as soon as one is uploaded, it will be locked in my Instagram bio and I will post on my story. I don't post all the time on Instagram because I'm too vain for my theme but I'm trying to become more active on there. If you need me, you can contact me, just look on my profile or comment on my posts and I will respond. 

Thank you for sticking by my mess of a life and for reading this far down my rant😂

Love always,

xmollymaex